Following thoughts and internal dialogue

I was following my line of thoughts using a journal. This proved to be a most valuable exercise even for the short number of days I was keeping the journal. I realized that I was not aware of many thoughts that were crossing my mind. Most of them had to do with my false idea of greatness. I compared myself with others and tried to inflate my image to create an image of greatness for myself. Even now as I write these, the great importance of the things I write is coming again to my mechanical mind… It was quite shocking to find that the patterns of thought were repeating themselves mechanically in a most boring and repetitive way. It was the first time that it was so obvious. When images of greatness were not working, images of incompetence seemed to take their place. In any case, not taking these thought processes personally seemed to add an important ingredient in having a proper image of where I currently stand and the work I have to do with myself…